Hey guys sorry I haven't been blogging for over a month, I've just been taking some time for myself. I hope you all had a happy holidays with your family and that the new year has been treating you all well so far. This is what you've missed in the past month:
Remember my best friend Jared that I'm insanely in love with? Well it was his birthday at the end of January and I texted him happy birthday. my text never delivered. I tried calling him when I realized he blocked my number as well as instagram, snapchat, and twitter. So I haven't seen him all break and I'm done talking to him. I don't understand why he blocked me, we were on such good terms before the break and we planned to hang out when we both came home. But fuck him and his skinny bitch of a girlfriend. He needs to grow up and undertsand that it's okay to have a girlfriend and friends that are girls. I actually haven't been having sex. In fact, I haven't had sex since the last time I blogged i december when I had sex with Matt. It felt like a lifetime ago I almost feel like a saint. What the hell is wrong with me? A part of misses sex and wants to go back to slutting around next semester. Another part of me wants to stop sleeping around and start thinking about a serious relationship. The second thought is a much better choice. Every since the new year started, I've started thinkinga about ways I could better myself in the next 12 months. One of the most important things I'm going to do is get to know someone before having sex with them because that's how I get hurt. I give it up thinking they want to genuinely get to know me but after I fuck them, they're out. And it shouldn't be that way. Also that really nice guy Joe who was totally into me now has a girlfriend. Once again a guy that showed interest in me that I didn't show interest back has a girlfriend. It's all my fault and he deserves to be happy.
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Today was Saturday and me and my friends decided to go to the city to look at the tree at Rockefeller since we are all going to be separated to go on winter break soon. I woke up at around noon and I found myself still in Matt's bed. Wearing his sweater of course. I woke up and told him I was going to the city so I went down to my dorm to get ready.
We finally made it to the city and trust me if you've been in times square during the Holidays, you know how fucking crazy it is. I have never seen so many kids in the city until tonight. Strollers and New Yorkers are not a good combination because all you see are strollers hitting people's heels and people getting enraged. But hey, welcome to new york. When we reached the Rockefeller Tree, I was so captivated by the size of the tree and the lights that the insane amount of people didn't really bother me. I have never felt more festive and excited for Holidays until I saw what its like in the Big Apple!! We stopped at a CVS because I had to buy a pregnancy test. No, I don't think I'm pregnant but shawn did cum a little inside of me, so it doesn't hurt to check. Even though I was pretty sure that I wasn't pregnant, taking a test is always the scariest moment of a girls life. Because at that moment, you're preparing yourself for the worst scenerio, and then you start thinking about what youre life would be like if you had a baby. Talk about getting disowned, that's exactly what my parents would do. I took the test and.... PHEW!!!! I'm in the clear!!! it's always such a relief when you see that one line instead of two and that negative sign instead of positive. So today I spent most of the day freaking out about Matt because he never got back to me. Thankfully when I woke up I saw that he texted me saying "I'm so sorry I fell asleep I really meant for you to come up". I sighed in relief that maybe I do have a chance. My friend He texted me that night asking If I wanted to hang out and I said yes i'll come up.
I walked in his room and it was dark. That was the first sign I knew that he was planning for something to happen. I walked over to his bed and hopped on. We talked for over an hour just about little things like tattoos, family, our dogs haha. We both have chihuahuas so I guess that means we're soulmates right? just kidding. We kept talking and then suddently he randomly told me how hot I was and that he wanted to get with. I suck at accepting compliments. Where I should've said "thank you, you too" I just kinda blushed and smiled embarrassingly. lol my life. We started touching each other flirtatiously without doing anything too forceful. I looked over to watch the boring bullshit we put on tv. (we both knew we werent going to just lay there and watch chopped all night). All of a sudden he rushed on top of me and started to kiss me. He was aggressive to say the least. He started biting my neck and biting my lips. Oh my god aggressive guys are such a turn on!!!! He started kissing me boobs and making his way down by stomach.....that's my ultimate weakness in bed. He turned me around and we started to fuck from behind. boyyyyyyy I've never orgasmed from penetration, but this time was different. I could feel myself hyperventilating and I aggressively grabbed his arm muscles and divined jaw line. He had me shook. After we were done, I put his comfortable sweater on and we cuddled while watching multiple epsiodes of fresh prince. I found my self laughing all the time when I'm with him. And if you know me, you know that I don't laugh a lot around you unless I consider you special. Of course I laugh but it's always my fake (I have to laugh or else they will think I"m a stuck up bitch) laugh. My real laugh is when it sounds something in between someone having an asthma attack and someone having an orgasm, it's some nasty shit. So if I really laugh in front of you, you're special. like really special. I ended up spending the night in his room and we just fell asleep watching family guy hahaha ` After the shit show of a day I've thought about the drama and I realized I don't want to get involved. There's only a week left of school, meaning I have to deal with final projects, homework, and exams. Drama is the least of my problems.
Remember that guy Matt I was telling you guys about? Well after the drama filled night I had, I was really happy to get a text from him asking to hang out. He came down to my room and we were talking about my project. He went over my essay and asked me if I wanted him to do it. (uh hello, fuck yes!!). He started typing my paper and researching quotes as I sat there staring at his perfect face. We talked and talked, which is nice considering guys nowadays don't want to know anything about who you are. Guys just want to know what's under your clothes instead of what's under your heart. We found out we have a lot in common. We are both really calm and chill people who don't like extremely loud noises or loud people. It felt nice for someone to ask me questions just this once. We hung out for three hours, which is a long time considering we weren't really doing anything school productive. Eventually he left the room but texted me later asking if I wanted to spend the night in his room. Of course i did!! I said yes but he never got back to me about it so I ended up falling asleep in my room. I'm that girl who will start to panic is a guy doesn't answer my texts and I start wondering what I did wrong. Even though I know I didn't. So of course the next day I was lowkey freaking out about the fact that he never texted me back. Is he not interested in me? Maybe he changed his mind? All kinds of shit is running through my mind. Today has been one big SHIT of a SHOW. First, my friend Tori wakes up and gets a text from this guy she used to hook up with named Nathan and it said "why are you telling people we are talking again". Tori has not said one thing about him and he is just a drama loving bastard to say the least. Tori also just told our friend Chase that she has no interest in him as anything more than just a friend. So Chase apparently started a rumor that Nathan and Tori are talking again, when they aren't. So this drama is going on and then there's drama with my friends and my roommate.
Me, Tori, and Tara are in the cafe eating dinner when we get a call from my roommate saying shes freaking out and lost her phone and wanted us to help her find it. Keep in mind that my roommate is also the girl who cries wolf way to many times. She always pranks us and lies about stupid shit. So we all were like nah we're not going to walk all the way to the dorm to look for her phone because she said the whole third floor is helping her. My roommate got pissed at all of us and said we are shitty friends because we didn't help her??? She lost her phone in our room, i could see if she lost it in the city or somewhere outside, but in the room???? You don't need thirty people helping her look for your phone, plus you could use find my iphone!!!! duh that's why apple made it!!!!So she's ignoring all of us except Tori. Because Tori is the type who will feel bad and make all of us look like the bad person. okay. Anyway I don't wanna go on any further because I'm so livid I cant even typr righykjwfnwhfq hghefa As you can tell from reading my college experience stories, you can see my life is a fucking shit show. My friends and I have been discussing turning our lives into a reality show because trust me, we'd be making a lot of money. Tonight I took a large step in revealing to my friends that I have started a blog. I didn't reveal my identity because there are some things I write about that NO ONE can read. Because thats the whole point of making a blog. If everyone could read it, I wouldn't tell the truth.
My friends are all deciding to start their own blog soon or maybe even writing a book. My friend Tori Wilson is going to start writing a novel about our college experience. She's an english major and if she does finish the book, I wouldn't doubt if the novel made it big. After discussing my blog with them, I noticed I've never formally introduced my friends or all the important people in my life. My group of friends in college are Tori Wilson, Tara Summers, Natalie Webster, Jasmine Nichols, and Samantha Hart. This is my group of friends that most of these crazy college experiences were with, with an exception of a few others. Samantha is my roommate, along with Tori and Tara being roommates. Haley Tucker and Aliya Richards are also my really good friends but they don't really hang out with my other group of friends. Justin Foster is my best guy friend who I am in love with. Jacob Lopez is the nice guy I met during my first weekend in college that I don't really talk to anymore. There are many more I will mention but this is the core group I will focus on most. If you're in college, you would know what it is like to live with a roommate. Roommates are supposed to be like the sister or sisters you've never had, Your best friends. And don't get me wrong I love my roommate to death, and she is like my best friend. BUT there are always going to be times where you wanna hit your head against the wall because it's hard to live with someone at this age.
You learn about other people's bad habits and oh my god, sometimes I wanna scream my fucking head off because of some of things I have to deal with. Sometimes it's healthy to vent about whats bothering you, so I'm venting to you all right now haha. For one thing, I can not stand slobs. If you're gonna be sloppy on your side of the room, fine. But when I find your clothes on my desk and my shit on your side, nuh uh I don't fuck with that. Also, If you are going to chew gum in the room, you best be spitting it in the trash can. I find gum on my fucking floor and under MY BED. talk about being a fucking mess!!! I alos found spoiled milk on her desk and pieces of candy stuck to the carpet. When I tell her to clean her shit up she tells me she can't because she is going to throw up?? bitch I'm sorry but I on't care If you're going to throw up, if you made the mess, you're cleaning up the mess. Since she refuses to clean it, I end up scrubbing the floor myself because I can't take the mess in the room. I also have candy in my drawer and today I saw half my candy was gone. I asked her who ate it and she claimed it was my friend Natalie. I was like Natalie, did you eat my food? And she said no your roommate did and I was about to explode. I mean it's not a big deal if she ate my food, but the fact she had to lie about it and throw my friend under the bus is what got me mad. My friends and I are laughing are asses off right now at 3:30 in the morning. What is sleep when you're a college student LOL. Sorry for sounding like a bitch bitching about my roommate!! I had to let it out It's sunday!! ugh which means tomorrow is back to school. On the bright side we only have two more weeks of school before it's winter break. College makes my mind spin uncontrollably. Most people say college student are alcoholics but I mean come on, can you really blame us?
We go to school,sports, dance, clubs, community service, and as teenagers we get pretty exhausted. All of the stress college gives us is the reason why we drink haha!! After my friends and I have been away from each other for thanksgiving, we decided we wanted to celebrate tonight. Oh yeah, GETTING DRUNK!! We all start drinking and playing beer pong in my room when I got a text from this hot guy named, Matt. We have a class together and he asked me to help him with his project. I was so fucking stoked. Apparently he's single and likes petite girls (thats me!). I went up to the lounge and started talking to him. Nothing happened btw, sadly. I am trying to talk to him more and hopefully something will happen between us before winter break. Again here I am blogging at 3:45am and I have a 9:00 class. Don't know how I'm getting up tomorrow, I guess we will see... I don't think I ever mentioned to you guys the reason I decided to start a daily blog in the middle of November. It's because so much shit has happened to me this past semester that's wayyyy too juicy not to blog about!!
Which is why I have a page for college experiences. A lot of my stories had already happened therefore if you want to know the juicy stories, you can read a very detailed version in that page. Other than that, I'm daily blogging because with my life, there's going to be more crazy stories coming soon. I'm still here on Staten Island and all I did this weekend was sleep. but boy was that sleep needed. I also have a History report due on Monday, yet here I am fucking blogging instead. I am the worst procrastinator I've ever met. I always find a way to get my work done, but that's after stressing out, drinking 5 coffees, and pulling all my hair out. You would think I learned by now not to wait till the last waking second to do my work. Nah, those you know me knows I never learn. Just like how I never learn to go to sleep early so I stop waking up at 3pm when the day is practically over. I also started reading this book called "Just Friends". No not the bullshit Billy Taylor one that everyone posts on twitter saying how great it is. No it's another one by Monica Murphy and its amazing!! You guys should definitely check out this book if you've ever found yourself catching feelings for your best guy friend, I know I have. Okay goodnight bloggies I'm exhausted Happy Black Friday!! Also known as the most hectic day of the year for us teenagers. More specifically teenage girls because we all want that 2 for $40 bras and 7 for $27 at Victoria's Secret. I am an absolute shop-o-holic but the funny thing is I'm not really a fan of Black Friday. Personally, I think it's stupid that everyone waits in line at 12 to shop when the Black Friday sales continue until the end of the weekend. Cyber Monday duh!!
I'm more of a cyber monday kind of girl. I love laying in my bed monday morning and shopping online while drinking hot chocolate (sometimes wine ha!) and listening to R&B throwbacks. Although I did go Black Friday shopping and bought a few things. Instead of buying bras and panties I ended up buying pinsol and a mop. Excited stuff right? I actually bought cleaning supplies because my dorm floor is dirty and sticky from people spilling alcohol and food. my friends are fucking slobs. I bought several sweaters and jackets from H&M, they always have really good deals. That's pretty much it. My friends are currently watching scary movies and if you know me, I despise scary movies with a passion. I just finished watching Orphan with them, although I wouldn't really consider Orphan a thriller. I actually really liked the movie! They're watching the remake of Halloween and I don't fuck with scary shit like that I'd be getting fucking nightmares. Which is why I'm blogging because I need to take my mind of the movie. I'm currently listening to Bruno Mar's new song Versace on the Floor, his album just dropped last week and I've had it on replay ever since. Speaking of albums dropping, the Weeknd's album came out this morning! It's pretty lit shit you guys should definitely listen to it. |
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